I don't know whats going on... Lately I just feel like I am not appreciated or anything. I feel like I am there to cook, clean and take care of you and the kids.
I don't know where the love went between us.
I am sitting here in tears at work as I write this.
It hurts me knowing that I can send you text... send you pictures and you will reply or comment to anyone else before me. I feel like I am a last thought anymore to you.
I hate that I put you first... when my phone goes off and I know its you... I make sure I reply right away... and even if I don't know its you- I still check my phone asap to see if it is you. You could see its me but go on facebook or anything else and not ever reply to me and it would be fine.
Last night you said something that was so hurtful to me.
You has said something about a status that your bff put a few years ago that "who needs a woman when you have amazing friends" and you said that he isn't thinking like that now... and I joke oh i bet you are- and you said yea. I have two amazing friends. I said oh thats nice. and you didn't correct me or anything... so does that mean you really think that because you have 2 amazing friends you don't need me??!! That really hurts.
But I can't say anything to you about it.
I feel like I can't say anything about anything to you. Everything ends up in a fight.
Yesterday was bad. You made me feel like I don't work hard enough because I don't have a full time job. That I don't make enough money. That I am just not good enough.
I HATE FEELING LIKE THIS!
I hate feeling like I am just there to fill a spot in your life at times.
You tell me that I am not loving or whatever... Its hard for me to be because when I am... I end up hurt worse than normal.
I just don't know what to do.
I don't know what you expect from me.
I love you so much... and I really feel like I love you 100% more than you love me.
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